Thursday, March 28, 2013

Enough already...

After a couple of days on IV fluids and dextrose, the doctors gave the go on feeding Ollie. He had troubles sucking, swallowing, and breathing at the same time, so they determined the best way to feed him was through a nasal gastric tube. They tried to place the tube in his left nostril, but couldn't get it through the nasal passage. This is how we found out about his choanal atresia in his left nostril. After ENT came to examine Ollie, we found out his left nostril is completely blocked and his right is narrowed. The great news is this does not have to be operated on until the age of 4-6. :) The bad news was the only way to feed Ollie was through an oral gastric tube, which could only be used temporarily. Over the next few days, Jason and I contemplated the idea of having a gastric tube put directly into his stomach. A few more days went by and we knew the answer was to have the g tube put in. The next morning Ollie had an upper GI done to check the placement of his stomach. Jason and I had grabbed some lunch and chatted away about how excited we were to have our family together at home. Owen, Ollie's older brother, was waiting patiently at home to meet his baby brother. After lunch, we headed back up to see the little guy and two doctors were waiting on us. Once again, we were being hit with more bad news....Ollie's intestines were malrotated and his appendix was located on his left instead of the right side. The upper GI also showed three more issues with Ollie's heart. What was supposed to be a simple surgery turned way more complex! I thought in my head...enough already! I leaned over Ollie, looked over at the doctors and said, "Could there be anything else wrong in this four and a half pound baby?!?" I was so tired of taking 2 steps forward and 5 back. On February 20, Ollie had the Ladd's procedure and g tube placed. Surgery went great, but nothing prepares you as a parent to see your baby on a vent. When your baby is hurting, as a parent, you want nothing more than to take their pain away. Going through all of this with Ollie, I have learned that nothing can prepare you for the intense feelings that parenthood brings. One of these intense feelings is unconditional love, but stemming from this is the urge and obligation to protect.

1 comment:

  1. What a beautiful baby! Keeping you in my heart and prayers. Sending love, comfort, strenghth, and courage. Ollie is a very lucky baby to have such a wonderful Mommy and Daddy!